Isa
53:8
He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare
his generation? for HE
was cut off out of the land of the living: for
the transgression of my people
was he stricken.
This
seems to apply for Jesus, and hurts my eyes.
I
remember Nicolas, a man whom I met in those streets, who felt alone
and left that house it was not his home. I remember his tears, and
how he cried and hugged Elizabeth, telling us his sad story. Who
knows Jesus´? Who wrote about His deepest feelings, except about His
remarkable deeds and teachings?
I´m
glad that “Lazarus” can´t see down here (Luk
16:23).
I´m glad they´re ceased and passed away, because it is said: Lukes
16:25
"Abraham replied, 'Remember,
my child, that you
had a life filled with good times,
while Lazarus' life was filled with misery. Now he has peace here,
while you suffer.
I´m happy with my share,
I have lived and I haven´t lost hopes on somethings God and Jesus
know. I had children. Joshua was (or is) the one I missed more, but
he deserves his life and his living, and I plan to be here to help
him walk, as long as I can and, the same applies for Joy, Elisha and
Alexangerla (the one I enjoy now).
One of my brother is
childless and, sometimes He shows his affection to them in the
streets that I told him the story of a friend, whose uncle had legal
problems in Washington, just by being accused like a child molester
(Venezuelan culture is open to show some affection Saxon avoid).
Some people feel they are
alone even in the company of those they don´t see that missed love.
They don´t know how to manage or be cherished, because you are too
far, unreachable, an a picture or a phone call cannot do what a hug
deserves, a touching of arms heal, and a frank and direct eye talk
can say to your lonely soul: I know it because I have lived it.
Our soul, our mind, lies,
sometimes. The person who loves is just there and the waving of a
tail, the welcome of a dog or a cat is not that thing you need, not
the phone call of a distant children nor the text message received
saying: “I love you”.
Who knows how God feels?
Who knows how Jesus felt?
Could He feel the warmest
hug of a woman?
Could He enjoy the love
of that “sinner” who poured perfume over His head (and body)
using her hair to wipe her fault out?
That was pure love.
I had no other way to see
it to think it.
Last week I went for
shopping.
On my way I thought I´ve
seen someone I really loved. It was a crowed boulevard and I thought
I wasn´t daydreaming.
I let my feelings go. I
allowed my eyes to see what I wasn´t seeing.
I stopped to look at her
eyes. I wanted to know she was as happy as I was, meeting her without
a date.
I asked: Do you want me
to hug you or say just “Hello”?
I stared at my mind.
I knew it is love, but
it´s not.
There were more people
than I thought I could see.
I kept on walking and
each time I was to cross a corner, the traffic light was red... Three
times! (So I knew there was a lesson to stop)
I am not alone.
I´m plenty of love to
give (but it´s not my time)
and I´m happy the life I
lived.
P.S.
Just listen to the song
“FEEL” of Robbie Williams.
Come
And Hold My Hand.
I Want To Contact The Living.
Not Sure I Understand
This Role I´ve Been Given.
I Sit And Talk To God
And He Just Laughs At My Plans.
My Head Speaks A Language
I Don´t Understand.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
Feel The Home That I Live In.
´cos I Got Too Much Life
Running Through My Veins,
Going To Waste.
I Don´t Want To Die,
But I Ain´t Keen On Living Either.
Before I Fall In Love
I´m Preparing To Leave Her.
I Scare Myself To Death,
That´s Why I Keep On Running.
Before I´ve Arrived
I Can See Myself Coming.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
Feel The Home That I Live In.
´cos I Got Too Much Life
Running Through My Veins,
Going To Waste.
And I Need To Feel Real Love,
And A Life Ever After,
I Cannot Give It Up.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
Feel The Home That I Live In.
I Got Too Much Love
Running Through My Veins,
To Go To Waste.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
In A Life Ever After.
There´s A Hole In My Soul.
You Can See It In My Face,
It´s A Real Big Place.
Come And Hold My Hand.
I Want To Contact The Living.
Not Sure I Understand
This Role I´ve Been Given.
Not Sure I Understand.
Not Sure I Understand.
Not Sure I Understand.
Not Sure I Understand
I Want To Contact The Living.
Not Sure I Understand
This Role I´ve Been Given.
I Sit And Talk To God
And He Just Laughs At My Plans.
My Head Speaks A Language
I Don´t Understand.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
Feel The Home That I Live In.
´cos I Got Too Much Life
Running Through My Veins,
Going To Waste.
I Don´t Want To Die,
But I Ain´t Keen On Living Either.
Before I Fall In Love
I´m Preparing To Leave Her.
I Scare Myself To Death,
That´s Why I Keep On Running.
Before I´ve Arrived
I Can See Myself Coming.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
Feel The Home That I Live In.
´cos I Got Too Much Life
Running Through My Veins,
Going To Waste.
And I Need To Feel Real Love,
And A Life Ever After,
I Cannot Give It Up.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
Feel The Home That I Live In.
I Got Too Much Love
Running Through My Veins,
To Go To Waste.
I Just Want To Feel Real Love,
In A Life Ever After.
There´s A Hole In My Soul.
You Can See It In My Face,
It´s A Real Big Place.
Come And Hold My Hand.
I Want To Contact The Living.
Not Sure I Understand
This Role I´ve Been Given.
Not Sure I Understand.
Not Sure I Understand.
Not Sure I Understand.
Not Sure I Understand