I don´t know where you heart is, I don´t know what you seek, but Jesus gave us an example (and a clue).
You can guess what a box has by hearing its sounds, by holding it in your hands, by shaking it and feeling its movements but -the real content- would be “seen” when it lays down vulnerable, opened up, and completely seen... Isn´t this the way God wants us to be? At least, I feel He wants me to know who I am to acknowledge how wrong I am and was.
Today I had the chance to look at my mirror to ask these: Do you love? How much?
Jesus gave a living example and also saw it His way:
Joh 15:13 The greatest love you can show is to give your life for your friends.
Joh 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.
Joh 15:13 The greatest love people can show is to die for their friends.
Joh 15:13 Greater love has no man than this, that a man gives up his life for his friends.
Joh 15:13 No one shows greater love than when he lays down his life for his friends.
I have seen how much I really “love” for what I have given.
I could see how much I gave for how much I have given up for others: That is (and was) nothing (compared to others and Jesus´ examples).
If any person is stingy enough to give one minute of attention (and meager enough to think he/she deserves more to be heard or seen) you might know where his/her heart is: The heart is where our treasure is ( Luk_12:34 )
The more greedy we are, the less we give. The more self-centered we are, more selfishly we would give pretending to live.
I had a look on the attention I gave and those things I thought I shared...
How often did I visit my children to listen (and provide for) their needs?
How often am I called to give or receive attention? Who are these I called and those who called me?
Yesterday, a man I don´t know, called me greeting me that way I know as a trick. He gave me no time to say a word, so I wait and wait, until the time I was asked and I said: “I need nothing from you. I don´t need that you said it was nice to me, because I have no one to phone call and, each time I do that, I pay it in full... Additionally, I don´t like monthly payments.”
He called me for a business trade. That was not personal thing I dealt with and we often tend to seek or lie to get what others might have. That could be money, those things you got yourself or wicked sex.
As worldly people -we once were- we´ve been there, wooing at things that cannot be held, another way.
What are those things I said were my love and token of those offerings?
The more you´ve shared about you, the less you might be listening about another´s life and his/her accounts.
How much life you give? How much people have you blessed?
One, two, three... That´s OK! Enjoy those who hugged you... Jesus gave His entire life.
Luk_12:34 Because where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
How much have I left it exposed?
How much did I give it without expecting anything in turn?
I remember those days people wanted to be heard by a telegram. They couldn´t say too much, they couldn´t give a lot -sometimes- because they needed a swift way to give their message, at a low cost.
Will I preach Jesus that way?
Few of them I know dared to give much or too much. Those who longed their loved ones shared their feelings by writing long letters and, if they were limited in time (to write a bit more) they wrote on a daily base or, at least, regularly.
When my dad left home (to make money) he sent letters to my grandmother, his sisters and few to my mom. I learned a lot by reading and studying all of them: I got my dad´s and all those he kept from his loved ones. I know his joy, his shortcomings as backslides and his people´s needs (and what some of these really sought and need from him).
Know what? Jesus was not preached in there. There was so little hope that, after a “long time” I felt it was passing by, he came back home and -inside this- he stayed alone...
Why are we like these?
There is a message that needs to be sent to be reached. There are those who might see it wanted who can be reached, but we are selfish and stayed alone: “Home”.
How often do you write to your loved ones?
How much have you given real attention (and money) to those who have been ignored and missed up by you?
This is my introspection, today.
I´m thinking about those who haven´t received the Lord´s message but I also think about those who learned to leave you alone -all alone- leaving your life behind...
Love needs to be fed of with our deeds.
Empty words -without affirming verifiable facts- are useless things, just like a guitar without its player: “I love you” I can play, but I cared nothing about what your needs are, ignoring all what your thoughts could be (That´s not fair and few persons would think it as love).
How can you write a poem without a person who draws his/her attention?
You are also a source of inspiration for people´s love and affections.
How much you´ve given today, Antonio? What it is that you really give?
I haven´t seen how I was...
I´d like to thank youth people for being like they are (and also thanked God for how they were).
Each day is a change to change and all these things can be improved.
Mat 25:23 "His master replied, 'Good job! You're a good and faithful servant! You proved that you could be trusted with a small amount. I will put you in charge of a large amount. Come and share your master's happiness.'
How much am I assuring other´s attitude? How much have I backed up real friends? How much have I paid attention to those who badly needed (or those who have given me much more than I thought I deserved)?
Too many unanswered questions!... The answer is always Jesus.
A.T.