Stop my fall

I´m sick of being alone.

Eternally lost without you.

Come on! Let me in.

There´s no time

I should be in.

Open your eyes

Why can´t you see?

It´s my time

I want you hear.

Come!

Come on, my dear

Stop my faults

I want you here.

Stop my fall

Can´t I draw near?

Oh! Please!

Come on!

Let me be dear.

There´s no more time,

darkness begins.

I want you shine

I let you in.

Stop my fall.

This being alone

makes me feel sick.

Stop my fall

I let you in.

Break all these chains

Let´s take a break.

You´ve made me feel

my missing piece.

Stop my fall

and love me all.

Stop my faults!

You´ve shed new life

and peace in me.                   

A.T.

Caracas, Venezuela

Jan 9, 2013 (Edited May 2013).

Hide and Seek

There is an interesting human behavior in society and on the Internet. I would name it “Hide and Seek”, but surely mind researchers have named it properly.

I've seen the way how many people use to dress up each day, but on Fridays, many of them wear the “best”, same way church goers dress up to attend some meetings.

All the week dress like common workers or the average, but on Fridays they look better fashion and, the reasons are many concerning socializing, their going out with somebody. Isn't it like wearing  mask or uniform?

My sister's daughter told me some of her reasons... The company where she works gives its workers permission to relax, to wear casual on Fridays and she feels better, but she has to keep the company's standard and executive modesty.

As an outsider, I see how girls try to look sexier on Fridays, wearing higher shoes when going to work, and I cannot not be fooled they are free to do what they're pleased and allowed by conventional common laws but, Am I keeping God's standards of modesty?

I cannot deny the fact that I've looked one some girls the way I shouldn't but, Am I the only one fighting against the lust of these eyes?

Some of them have looked me down while I just stared or felt “alive”.  Ja! Ja!

I'm not the only. I know of girls, ladies and men who struggle the same (we all are humans). There are some fleshy ideas coming when we look wrongly at someone we considered sexy or nice looking, since we were trained to think the way the world keeps on teaching and I'm thankful married women or engaged couples have noticed that certain “naked” fashion and open-minded social behavior make any to look “sexy” or humanly desirable, far beyond normal friendship or casual dating.

God's fashion and dressing standards are being learned by those who walk in His Spirit. Those who know how eyes can lie, and are developing self control, even when we can forgive -sometimes- Jesus gave us a lecture on avoiding looking at persons lustfully (it's a human drive that calms down when being married) (sometimes)

I'm thankful for those women who hide and are dressed up with modesty, married or not. These are the ones who know what they want and what a man can really offer her to be married. I'm against free open-minded dating, unless I have known a young lady willing to marry me but, if we haven't been good friends, the road is lost... I have wasted time!

On the Internet I foolishly laughed on some tricks I know. I've seen dissatisfied women pretending to be single or separated, but they're not alone. Some single mothers “hide and seek” same ways like men, but these last are easily understood, because this has always happened on secular society, and the “law” permits any to lie and hurt others under common social consent.

I know real stories of men and women cheating on line. Some of them pretended to play a fair hide and seek game, but many were married or engaged to another, and some of my female friends have told me sad stories where they felt a real love, they felt being loved by the appropriate Mr Right One and, when personally meeting in a date, they were actually loving women who have used their mask to lie, using the Internet to access humans minds or writings.

There are good stories to talk about (I have published some of them on the Internet) and this kind of human intercourse may serve those who never had a real life or a short one for themselves. “Dating” or playing “Hide and Seek” on the Internet, as well in real life, may serve some to grow up, but grown-up Christians ought to be reminded this is just another play that can hurt and sometimes kill, both, emotionally and physically.

I like those persons, like me, who warn people not to enter. It's like those houses that placed some signs telling people: “Beware the dogs”. Is it a rotty dog you would meet? (is it a hungry tiger or lion?) :P

No transgressors are allowed, but PMs are to “knock down minds doors”, and it's shown some houses are broken in, same way some minds are cracked here or somewhere else.

Christians minds are set on God's standards. God's laws are firewalls and anti-virus.

I know that, those who are using avatars have their reasons to hide and to avoid being sought.

I have lately seen how girls and ladies are chased in the streets and on chat rooms. I'm glad God allowed me to be men. I've seen how girls are pretty different than us, and no wonder why we keep on searching for the missing piece rather than the missing peace. They are lovable, because God made them to be lovable, more than once (unless we both misbehave).

I beg women understand our misbehaviors. The world gave us same bad lessons you were trained to avoid or cling to. The Internet may serve to play games, but it also serves to train children to avoid being cheated or hurt. Cats and lions train their kids to live. A dog bites to avoid to be bitten, and a bee is sweet, unless she sees someone tries to steal her honey (others money).

I don't like playing games, I won't knock on “risky zones”, I don't like hidden faces, and will not visit those who deeply love their signs of “Beware of the dog” placed at the entrance as “welcome” carpets (I don't like to bark at the wrong tree).

Some Christians sites are bringing blessing rather than other places. Some of us are so deeply hurt that we do not dare to be healed nor try to healing (that's lawful and conventional allowed).

Perhaps here, on earth, we have too little common ground. Perhaps my likeness serves only my mirror so wash my face, to look at my thoughts, and to be engaged with dreams, because urban people like to find out where their prey is... Is this instinctively done by Christians too? I quit!

Life is a lottery, and I have heard the same. I don't want to bet any longer: “No one could receive anything if it doesn't come from above.”

I beg His righteous kingdom come into my life. I beg to be taken into His present and have some room to be a true hermit, the way I think I am.

Betting never pays well! Because: “Easy comes easy goes”

Looking at the positive.

I love Jesus' way to approach people. He wasn't playing games and, more than that, He played honesty when asking questions. I'd like to share the way He talked to a solitary woman, during the noon of a hot day (John 4:6). They talked and, apparently, they both were alone (John 4:8), because the disciples marveled when returning (John 4:27). Jesus wasn't playing “Hide and Seek”, He wasn't sending hypocritical PMs, but He only asked her to bring her mate to share, and she said she wasn't married (John 4:16-18). Was she wearing our social mask?

She became interested in which thing He has to offer and, in fact, she asked Him, who He was (John 4:12).

Jesus was not judgmental. Instead, He said she was telling “the truth”, but we are aware she was telling another thing and many of us say one thing, avoiding telling the envious or hidden truth: Are you single? I'm divorced. Would I rather say engaged? No! I can't afford it.

Jesus always acted according to His preaching. That time, 2000 years, He came to save; next time He will come to judge, but interceding for those He knew, for those He loved, those who have repented their sins.

We don't know what is in everybody's mind, but we play hide and seek. Jesus knew she was telling half the truth and He acknowledged the positive side of it, and bypassed the negative. We play games and hurt, but that's not the way it should be.

Why some people warn not to use PMs? (Personal Messages)

Why do I need to use PMs, if I can say openly my real thoughts? Secrecy is foolish. The Internet servers are monitored and, more important than this, I could be banned by God ETERNALLY.

We are afraid many things. We don't want to be molested and disturbed. We don't want to be hurt (while hurting and hunting).

I seldom go to hidden faces or places. I always looked after nice looking faces, and seldom to the ugly duck...

Should I say, instead, “We” to mention more people than just the evil in me? (I regret this code working in my mind, so I protest.)

I will not apologize for being me. I cannot remove this program (but I keep on trying).

I thank you just for being you, for letting me know who you are; and I did nothing to help, but confessed and denounce the world we all are living in.

Struggling prayers

Some people are struggling like many of us... But there are answers and, on a chat for prayers, I met someone who was largely expecting for a friend to pray...

I offered myself to pray for the person she missed.

I asked her to lead me in the prayer time, since I'm not her friend and I don't know what her name is, but we both enjoyed the short time.

I felt like if I had my hand holding hers, and I had to confess I shed some tears and I felt I had my nose running for joy, because WE PRAYED TOGETHER and felt my hunger to keep on praying.
She told me how she felt. She said she felt peace and joy. So I had to confess what I thought it was only mine (but she told me that first).

It was a good spiritual exercise to be done and a new experience I treasure (that day at 11am). She was in Asia, at 11 pm. Ja! Ja! It was her bedtime to pray, and I had the privilege of being “at hand” when she was tired, and praised God. 

We had an international communion online. It was a need we enjoyed, and nurtured me both, in the mood and spiritually, since this meeting was for common goals that led us to new things on spiritual matters.

There are some things I'm not being answered in some prayers, but THIS pleased me more.

Mrs and Mr Right, and the missing piece (it´s not a rib)

I belonged to the Hispano culture and its ways of thinking. I thought I would be eternally rooted to it and its traditions, but I'm doing my best to change, and I know it's too late at the age 50; but holy wisdom is backing me up to leave some things behind, and I want to print my square toe on the sand of these passing sheets.

I believed like you and I cannot deny the being of my humanity. I had my dreams and I decided to be contend with those I have at bedtime or daydreaming, and these notes are those dreams bringing me chances I have to daydream: May my words SERVE one to help (and I know two people thanked my writings, and I expected nothing in turn).

My life, like everyone else, has been a quest. I tried to live the best way and, in many aspects, I failed, and I'm happy I forgave myself (If you plan to be a Christian, do you that favor). God keeps on forgiving me when I repent, when I try to change and amend, so why do I have to be the one who wants to cut my life off, when trying to be better?

Life is a long term lesson. I've seen how we can learn from others and these people are giving us free college lessons. Your life also keeps on teaching someone, up to the last day in this human body.

Yesterday I enjoyed a “naive” thread at CC. Someone came giving shouts to find out his “missing piece” (as I said). I lied when I told him I would keep an eye over him, up to the moment he finds that woman he tries to get... Is he the one on that quest?

Recently I told my friend MS that she was wrong. She still prays to find her Mr Right and insists on asking God for the man who has what she lacks, same way Adam acknowledged Eve to be his “missing part”.

Do we really lack a rib, or a bone easy to bite?

I asked her is she had problems with her ADN molecules. I used to think all men had their Eve to be found, but that idea is wrongly taken from the Bible: Adam was directly made by Gods hands, and I came to be “a body” because of my parents. I'll be born again when God gives me from His Spirit, same way Jesus told Nicodemus (John 3: 5-7). So the real missing part is His Spirit, because I used to live on the human flesh.

I tried to tell MS that Eve was a reverse creative process, half a clone, where Adam “really” lost anything within him (the missing rib).

I'd say “reverse” because God worked from an opposite extreme, from a missing spare part, the rest of the world was not heard of; so women is an invention above the invention, and that's why I cannot say: “Flesh of my flesh...” as Adam did. (He was lucky! He had no inlaws) He! He!

Perhaps -that very day- he saw a perfect mirror of what any man (or woman) looked at, while stepping into the uncertain grass of body fitness or beauty; but we were not told how she was mentally and what she would feel she lacked (same way as him).

Both tried to find out the appropriate information to build up that relationship. We are not told the time when God set apart that couple, so they started to walk alone out of Paradise, and here is where we ended up to meet and learn, same way they did, while we try to look deep in our minds what is the correct answer to give.

Jesus told two important things:

a) Love your God... and

b) Love your neighbor.

Somewhere else He taught about FAITH, Justice and Mercy.

Do these mental attitudes really matter in mate selection?

How are they connected as bonding things?

Experience tells me I would not marry godless people (I know who I was and who I could be: That's why I avoid those who acted like me).

I do not marry those who shows little respect or consideration for people. A very demanding man (or woman) shows more respect for his or her own concerns and things. The more we ask, the less we give.

Perhaps my kids won't pay attention to what I wrote today, to what I said anyday, but they will learn the hard way.

I don't care being heard and don't need being thanked, but I owe many who brought me here (specially GOD and life).  :P

I invite the reader to learn from others, I like to share what I got from wikipedia these last days, and it is connected to your Mr or Mrs Right (once you find her, call me back) :D

“From the standpoint of anthropology and sociology, dating is linked with other institutions such as marriage and the family which have also been changing rapidly...”

From the standpoint of Adam, was he concerned of a family or a relationship with himself and his fe-male (his missing part)?

From God's side, was He concerned on the development of a society or in those hum@n's needs? (No doubt He thought of both missing parts).

Wikipedia, on its good article of Dating keeps on saying:

“ ...there have been substantial changes in the relationship between men and women, with perhaps the only biological constant being that both adult women and men must have sexual intercourse for human procreation to happen.^[3] ”

In my book of life, since I was a child, I wasn't thinking of sex. I believed my functioning program was not having such an intercourse before being a teen; but at that time came a new thing that wasn't a rib, and it changed my known drives and gave my life an additional task that gave me new troubles.

I knew it was a nice looking face what helped me to cling easily to some little girls. I was fat, so I seldom looked to those like me; no matter how beautiful they were outside, because I knew who I wanted to be and what I dislike from me.

When being a teenager, I never dated those who reminded me whom I was. I wasn't handsome, so I never got a lovely poem for me. Let's say I tried! But poetry looks after itself. And life gives you much more interesting things to read on...

Wikipedia says:

“Humans have been compared to other species in terms of sexual behavior. Neurobiologist Robert Sapolsky constructed a reproductive spectrum with opposite poles being tournament species, in which males compete fiercely for reproductive privileges with females, and pair bond arrangements, in which a male and female will bond for life.^[4]”

Does a simple Christian compete for REAL LOVE or sex?

I agree that that drive took much of my life to be changed. I “knew” a good nice looking face was related to a body and its beauty, but it took me years to understand that beauty wasn't well associated with companionship, deep love and loyal concern: Beauty makes some men to compete, but it doesn't match long-term companionship but rivalry. Beauty may draw many, but seldom keeps deep bonds of love (for it tends to be selfish, both male and female sides).

Christians are learning to deal above the externals and its appearance. Long-term relationships last more that external beauty and its “fitness”, but I must admit what I'm dealing with, what I thought it was important and what I believed those days moved my loyal feelings: The Bible is a good guide for the subject. Look a Samson's life! Delilah wasn't the best choice he chose. He looked at the outside, and he failed same way I am...

Christians -sooner or later- will change other things beneath our human nature, but our character tends to last at last.

There are many secular writers who have given you the information of their witnessing; but you are the better book  to read on your likes, your needs, and those dreams you try to find out “the missing piece”.

I won't say “we're naturally inspired to built societies”, but relationships.

I do say God made us so perfectly we cling to those we belong, especially when He gave us His Spirit to live His life.  (Thank you, God, for bringing us to a new life).

Dating could be unnecessary if we had God's advice clearly heard. I like to read Isaac's love story and that gave me tips worth noticing: a) Isaac's dad prayed in advance. b) The messenger prayed and did what his lord asked him to do. c) “Mates” pay attention to social status and economy, same way men and women look for beauty.  d) Messengers (or penpals) must to look at good attitudes, such as humble service, chastity and fear of God.

Today I wouldn't say my daughter: “Marry him! He is rich, and of noble family”. That's awful and sinful (I'd be selling her to a man). If I'm asked, I'll give some words; but I should be praying same way Job did for his children.

Today Mrs and Mr Right is not my business arrangement, as it used to be. I rather back off, unless my sons plan to bring her mates home, to live under my roof: Go find your own place! :P

Todays dating is better than clandestine meetings. There is a reasonably risk in these, but public dating serve to help us develop the safe character we lack when being pagans and cheaters. It gives us chances to grow well and there's no need to push for intimacy or privacy.

Your Mr Right is not at the corner drinking, smoking or dancing. Your Mrs Right is not embraced in the darkness of a disco-club, doing things I cannot say.

The missing piece of a man (or a woman) is what we would like to do, to care for and endlessly nurture. I'm not sure if I lack a rib; but I'm sure it's a part of me I haven't lost somewhere that someone will unveil in similarities, likeness, I would like to share, to back up and care of.

God is marvelous! He gave us a code we know when meeting certain people. It's a kind of software that immediately runs or freeze the fashion we know we are or used to be. There's a secret hunch that tells us she is and some aren't, and the Bible teaches well to see what's good or wrong.

The world teaches us to fail, to hurt, to lie, to be lost of success. We expend decades loosing and seldom winning. How long these college lesson will be to suffer pains and to loose?

I wish I could heard God's warns. Sometimes I prayed and the things I thought were His answers misguided me to fail. Sometimes we here voices and those, too often, are our mingled voices, the confusion of the world within our selfish human will: Thank you God, for giving us a second chance.

Who's Mrs Right and Mr right?

It could be any who shows respect for others. One whose life tends to be centered of God's warnings and deeds. Anyone of good character who has what you like and wished to share and enjoy.

Sometimes you find someone you don't like and don't feel forced to accept what you do not like, on demands: The girl who came to marry Isaac like him at distance. She was “enticed” for reasons and had a commission to carry on: Marriage! (The essentials were “secured” when she saw the economic status of the one who asked her for his son and, getting home, she knew her mate was handsome, so she felt encouraged from the heart because of her eyes).

Do not marry unequally yoked. Do not date pagans and be safe from troubles. Your Mr Right is one you like, but pay attention to some warns received.

Let's say something “good” happened when certain king wanted to divorce and the Roman Holy Church said “No”. We naively can say “yes” to anything that can give us a 2nd chance to find out Mrs or Mr Right.

Was that king really interested in finding his Mrs Right? If so, why not trying FRIENDSHIP first and a long-term DATING, before being married?

In Colombia, you cannot be divorced to re-marry in a Catholic church. Legally you can divorce, but you cannot attend your church wedding twice, unless one of the spouse die... Who wants a widow? If divorce or separation hurts, what about that loss?

History is partial and defective to be complete. I could say it because there were more than spiritual reasons for the “Restoration Movement”. Beneath all those superficial waves, there was a powerful economic reason; because the Roman Church owned too much land and power in Europe, and it was receiving a big deal on tithing each year; so England needed to get rid of its transnational economic influence. Such that “religious” change (and the rising of a new secular state control) gave England political cohesion and many Catholic believers were won as “Protestants” by the Anglican church; whilst Rome became weak during this slow process that also influenced other countries in Europe (i.e.: Germany, France...)

Kings in Europe were landowners and the Roman Church had its share as landlord. Some kingdoms were not strong enough; so portions were sold or handed over as pieces of land to some noble men who became crusade champions and free lancers, but time proved them to be rivals (The Reformation Movement has an economic background we're not clearly told as a reason, same way Crusaders wanted to get land outside their own countries to have more economic power: The land was a means of production) and more land everywhere served to get food, new trades, while poor were enslaved to work for landowners... Isn't it easy to remember why the whole America was conquered?

What about Mrs and Mr Right those days “land belonged to kings and noble men”?

(is it the same today?)

This might look sad and nasty: Too often people needed landowner's approval to get married. I watched a movie (with Mel Gibson) that showed me a thing hard to believe, and that's why many used to sin instead of allowing the landlord were first to approve... (That too reminded me those days of slavery in South and North America).

There were civil and political rights for privileged races of light colors; while other human beings were physically abused and enslaved.

What was the attitude of the Catholic Church? Was it “saving” people, or taking advantage in that business?

Have a look at the States who blessed nations to set men free...

Those times were a mess in Europe and America. Marriage needed same race approvals and “the traditional” church was mainly concerned in its decreased economic status. Indulgences were sold “to built” new churches and people needed to pay for their landowner's permission to get marry in Europe. What a sad thing! Today marriage is “free”, and divorce costs you double the inversion... :P

Historically we've seen how families lost control on us, as children, and let us lead our life the way we were pleased. Fathers left their kids made their choice same way Samson did, receiving no tip of parental advice; while others let church leaders misled them into errors when selecting faulty males or females. While some believers did well when their parents were unwilling (or missing) to help them into marriage.

Who's helping you to find out your Mrs or Mr Right?

Jesus said “those seeking will find, those asking will receive...”; but let us be warned that He also said this life would bring us trouble... (John 16:33).

Sometimes I relied on new technologies to find out my Mrs Right (perhaps that surname does not exist) Ha! Ha! :D

I never paid for the social service “matching pairs” promised. I wanted to believe what was often offered, but no one would give me what I would be hindered to receive or see from God's hand. These sites are making their deal acting like virtual “chaperons”, love promoters or real counselors for Jews, Christians... an atheist people.

Where is my Mrs Right?   (Knock! Knock! May I come in?)   Ja! Ja! Ja!

  

I made my decision and I hope I can accomplish what I liked... I cannot run and hide pretending I like to be an urban hermit, but I'll try to remove this tired secularism from my life.

What if something turns my life around? That will be welcome; but I faced vasectomy to avoid more children and I enjoyed fatherhood already.

What would be my missing piece? Complete peace?

I told my daughter: “Yo no quiero ser abuelo...” and I don't want to be a runaway twice.

Most people I knew wanted to succeed. They tried to do their best, and often shortcomings came where each hidden corner appeared. Some of us failed unintentionally and some lately regret, but God still gives us a 2nd chance.

The world has broaden its ways to cheat, to be double minded and play new game.

How could I risk myself to hurt, since I knew the pains of being hurt?

Will I forget Jesus' teaching, when I'm already told about the broad scope of earthly and heavenly love?

Jesus married no one... I don't know how His mind is and I guess the full nature of His LOVE is above and beyond my own limits (while God's is much more than that).

Todays dating might be changing your Mrs and Mr Right. He (or she) might be endangered to lose or miss you while running too fast on BB chats, SMSs, IMs or FaKeBook.

There are so many ways of exploring, that I confess I'm old fashioned and not updated. What if I admit publicly I liked perfumed snail mail?  

           

Your Mrs and Mr Right live at the corner, same city you are in... or abroad!

My mom is above 70. She still saying “I expect a rich man to take me out to be married”.

Jesus told us “a man speaks from the treasure of his heart”. The mouth speaks from what we've got. So that's an useful tool to keep at hand to find out our Mrs or Mr Right (I better be shut)  :D  Who wants to be shot?  Ja! Ja!

I hope I finish an article I have published separately, under the named of: “Manual de Supervivencia” (in Spanish). There I shared some tips I've learnt and heard of, and I hope to serve others who see the Internet as a means to find that special someone.

Wikipedia gave me more interesting information on Dating:

“ Social rules regarding dating vary considerably according to variables such as country, social class, religion, age, sexual orientation and gender. Behavior patterns are generally unwritten and constantly changing. There are considerable differences between social and personal values. Each culture has particular patterns which determine such choices as whether the man asks the woman out, where people might meet, whether kissing is acceptable on a first date, the substance of conversation, who should pay for meals or entertainment,^[6][17] or whether splitting expenses is allowed. ”

But what about this next? I should check and confirm:

“Among the Karen people in Burma and Thailand, women are expected to write love poetry and give gifts to win over the man.^[18]”

I hope they never take my poems... I wouldn't like mine were used to draw a man. All of mine were written for women! (I had better to hide my nickname) Ha! Ha!  :P

And, on the other side, I would feel disappointed if a woman copies someone's else poetry to woo me or another. That's a fake feeling! (I'd be misguided, at least).

Dating seems to an evaluation process before being married, but I must admit the “hidden” backsliding this could bring on us. Does friendship serve on meeting your Mr Right?

We too often let dating drifted from  friendship. We did some things wrong before marriage, and I know how my life ended up to be alone. What's wrong to befriend?

There are nice love stories to learn from. These could be endless, and I'll try to find out how (next life).

Wikipedia keeps on saying: “Since there is uncertainty about how to behave on a date, there are numerous sources of advice available.^[21][22][23]”

We had better saving time when learning from others. Some Christians lack the habit to read and learn from safe and “kosher” places, and I don't dare to read too long on a Cosmopolitan magazine, unless I want to know how pagans do and think. Isn't it a battle field we ought to know the enemy?

Children are under threat, written violence appears anywhere. Am I really armored against this weaponry?

“Sources of advice include magazine articles,^[20]self-help books, dating coaches, friends, and many other sources.^{[26][27][28][29}”

Good! I myself feel challenged.

“And the advice given can pertain to all facets of dating, including such aspects as where to go, what to say, what not to say, what to wear, how to end a date, how to flirt,^[30 and differing approaches regarding first dates versus subsequent dates.^[31] In addition, advice can apply to periods before a date, such as how to meet prospective partners,^[25][31] as well as after a date, such as how to break off a relationship.^{[32][33][34][35][36][37][38}”

The Bible is plenty of ideas, but these may serve to spare you time (if this comes from Christians).

I cannot change what it's under my skin. My software, my program, is built in. And I bet God will lead me to the place I need to be...

In His name.

A. T.    May 2013

Am I forgiven?

I´m just checking a site for dating and meeting (those that are "Christians", but using some fake profiles) and I read this:

"...He should be involved in a Bible believing Church, be kind, understanding, loving, be spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically fit. He should not smoke, drink, use drugs, or be divorced."

Quickly I felt we have the right to say our truth and what we expect from others IF WE PLAN TO MAKE A LIFE TOGETHER, but we sometimes become a judge and ask MORE THAN WE´RE GIVING IN... (God forgave us, but we´re harder than HE IS).

Let´s say I´m healed, and it´s lawful to expect certain good things I want others to be or do, while I AM doing nothing to make it happens (even in my own family).

I could say I´d like to re-marry. I could say I regret ALL MY MISTAKES and those failures that led me to divorce, but I could critize the bias some of US have to ACCEPT OTHERS the way they are TO HELP THEM to the ones they could be.

I know the reasons I have to avoid fat people, drinkers or smokers (all know what each avoid) but publishing and ad banning those who are fat, ugly, rich-poor will stop any to interact, to draw near and befriend... How come will I share a bit (a byte) of my tiny love?

I can say "I don´t want to marry a woman who has been in jail", but WHO AM I? since all my sins DESERVE PUNISHMENT, even death penalty.

Allow me to laugh! (  ) Some of us are afraid. Afraid to love, to accept people (the way they are). We are afraid! Even to leave a tiny line of comment under some posts, blogs or simple isolated prayers.

I´m thankful most of the people I´ve read (here) are not like F.B. or twitters...