I´m a sinner... I´m a sinner!

Well, I was baptized (in water) by 1994, but I´m growing these days.

Today, by the way, I got more insight on God´s plan when watching some videos from www.freechristianteaching.org

There, my friend Dr Richard Kent sent me 4 DVDs I saw last night and understood some things I have passed or left behind when walking life my way (Today it was a kind of reconvertion, I´d say).

I´d like to spread the word, I like your advise.

In fact, I´ve been writing for years, and I´ve been searching for clues (just because I think God has much more to say than what is written on the Bible). I mean, I believe HE MUST BE PERSONAL, so I´m trying to learn (or GUESS) from Him and I was seriusly discouraged (I said: I was), and I have abandoned that quest (a couple of years) and I still insist on seeking HIS PERSONAL VOICE (there are many things I think now, but I don´t know how to express them in verbalized words, even in my own tongue).

This is in my soul! (I wish I pour it out BEFORE HIM).

If I were allowed, I could send you some links for you to check and, afterwards, if your are pleased, you can say if I´ll be worth of listening. But I consider I need a personal encounter with God first.

There were many who met Him or HEARD Him, and did (and do) the job, but if He doesn´t talk to me -in a living and comprenhensive way- how could I help others WHO NEED DESPERATELY a personal encounter with God or Jesus Christ?

For me is enough (what I got today serves me well), but how could I tell the world the the Bible is enough? or how could I say it serves well as a "Service Manual" for a living creature who needs His PERSONAL assurance? A personal RELATIONSHIP to listen to His personal voice (I know He is) (I know He reads what I write and have written).

While reading the Bible I have found some little faults.

These aren´t enough to discredit the traditional "accuracy" of the Old Testament, but these hinder me to believe on the full inspiration on the New Testament.

Allow me to mention some of these:

Matt 23:35 contradicts Jer. 31:30 or Ezekiel 18:4.

In Matt 27: 9  I´ve seen a mistake when not saying it was Zacarías 11:12-13 (but someone wrote Jeremiah) (and I have checked the hebrew words, just to see if they were too similars to cause such a confusion: They were not so!)

If these faults ARE HUMANS´. I agree (they are!).

How could I say, like Paul (or whoever) "All Scripture is inspired"?. (I believe on the Old Testament) (Jesus mentioned some portions of it) (Scripture were fulfilled with Jesus, only).

In Jesus´ times there were no "New Testament", no such writers to speak about. So, when He spoke about the Scripture He spoke about the Old Testament writers.

Of course, the issue is that IT IS still INSPIRED, but I can´t tell the world "it is" up to the moment God helps me to overcome this lack of satisfaction (a human one) because these HUMAN faults made me think THERE COULD BE MORE MISTAKES (and many could be intentionally placed).

(Placed by people like the emperor Constantine to rule Rome, and the world of his days). 

Do you understand me? I´m a human being who needs to deal with reasonable things like these.

What if the Lord´s day was manipulated from saturday? The Old Testament said "saturday" would be "forever".

I´m sure I don´t need circuncision, but If I?

(I know this will not save me, but GOD´S will) but I do need to understand FROM HIS LIPS. (and the world needs Him also). 

Circuncision was for a purpose I can´t mention here, and it served Israel to be as it is now (out dated purpose) (Nothing to write home now).

If He talked DIRECTLY to the prophets, He could talk to me: That´s the point! (although I serve for nothing someone else could do).

And if He does it, I mean -talking to me- the WHOLE world is His: I cannot sell a product if I haven´t use it first. Millions need this. And Jesus is His word, but WE NEED RELATIONSHIPs, and a serie of books nor a BLOG can´t serve for this purpose.

I cannot imagine how much people are wandering and asking for my same honest petition. It´s not hard, but the pain of the need itself.

I believe He´s resurrected, but I need to listen to Him.

I don´t need my eyes, but a word that is much better heard than seen.

Is it too much what I asked?

Pauls and many said He spoke... 

Am I too far (from Him) to be heard or read?

I know I don´t (I´m here! pouring this feeling out) and, whatever I need to correct -HE KNOWS- He may say IT and I have it corrected.

I´m not better than any other sinner on earth, but I´m sure I´m not worst.

I´m a sinner... I´m a sinner!

and He knows what each human being needs.