Hide or seek?

It's been more than 10 years I've been online using several nicks and impersonating different playroles... 😉

I have loved ppl l I've met online and, by passing time, I was left behind because I'm not the guy they imagined (or planned) I would be, but I never hid myself on the way they keep on doing, simply showing their "best" (yet hiding their shitty and human shadows).

Socializing online emotionally helped me learned what I never thought about me, and the whole world. I never knew this virtual cosmos was bigger than I thought it was (in fact it's bigger than we thought it would be).

On netlog, I think I've met Elizabeth. I quickly knew she wasn't the "one" I would pick to cherish or love, but she enticed me enough to circunvent the red flags 🇨🇳 🇧🇭🇭🇰 I've noticed, and the moment she knew I wasn't the mate she thought she deserved, I was lovingly kicked off, the way I knew it would be (but certainly I enjoyed that time, I've learnt more about ppl's unfair / odd expectations) and later on, by 2014, I made a similar mistake when I met Carolina personally.

Carol was in Colombia. She usually showed her hurting heart while she hid her face.

I wanted to help her overcome her hurt feelings... She usually wrote she was brokenhearted, and I didn't know she was having a love affair while she was married! (I've been such a fool trying to help cheaters who were cheated on).

I think I was deeply concerned on Carol's issues. I ignored she was a talented artist mastering her charming means to get the attention she thought she deserved: If she openly showed her face (and body shape) from the beginning, I imagine she would have gained the attention of more fans, more ppl she would have checked or picked at desire, as "things" that could be instruments of prey or any play.

She knew my real birthday and after months she said she came to the city I was... She told me she has planned to give me a birthday present (I knew she was flirting), but I never thought she could be as beautiful as she was those days...

Now I understand why some girls/women needed to play their foolish "hide & seek" games.

Needless to say I fell in love after hugs and kisses I received in the mouth. 😘

I never thought my deep concern in her well-being could give me anything back, a love toll in return.

To make this love story short, I knew too many things quickly and soon I got jealous, and she hated me (I'm not the one who would share "my" mate with those she might also love).

Yet my foolish heart forgot she was a hurting cheater. I selfishly believed I had all she sought (she never said) but I misread her hugs and wet kisses...

As you surely would have guessed, she liked and loved too many ppl; but that relationship (I thought I've gained) promised nothing to no one, and I'm glad I knew I made my mistakes.

One day, when I looked at her breast, she said something like this, "What an irony! One man paid for these tits I now have, and it's another who enjoyed them..."

In a nutshel, that was a twofold story of illegal abandonement:
1) Her husband was loving a younger woman instead of his cheating wife.
2) The unloyal wife (Carol) was missing a musician she loved, because he had decided to turn back to the wife he has been cheating with Carol... What was my real position in playing both cheating games?

I'm a fool like any other is (or plays).

Women pick all those they think "best".

We, both men & women, love to prey and be loved "víctims".

So here I show a pictured of another cheater who wants to know what to do                        👇

If I was a rich fat man or a wealthy / poor Adonis, I would show who I am to spare myself from troubles and save few moments of time (I guess most of those who considered themselves ugly -or unlikeable- hid their faces and bodies thinking WE humans would love an idealized soul they've believed they gained). None of us is perfect!

If I don't ACCEPT myself, If I don't work around my personal FAILURES and shortcomings I won't be sold out (to remain being the same lonely thing people left behind).

I have "met" ppl who missed the WHO I am. I have met ppl I also misundertood but, If I had another day to love the person I love, my whole day won't be another daydreaming: Whomever YOU have got it's your personal achievement!

I'm not sure If Bernie Taupin inspired all the lyrics of Elton John's songs but, whatever person was behind, he/she was right: "...some things never change... we can build a bridge between us, but THE EMPTY space remains".

We're never plenty! We always want more (free things, fans, experiences, love affairs, money, etc.)

If Adan really was in that Garden with Eve, what did they lack or missed having all?

I wish I had God!

I wish I were removed to other world and, If nothing could be better, I wish I died in a sleep I never wake up: Selfishness sucks!

 I'm upset of humanhood.

 I'm tired of evil games!