I've borrowed the title from Kurt Dahlin's article, but my experience is uniquely mine. As I publicly resign from my Christian identity, I'm acknowledging my incomplete spiritual journey. I've abandoned several Christian blogs and am now seeking a more authentic connection.
You may recognize that the Bible isn't the only source of "godly" information. In fact, many cultures have borrowed from each other, adapting and blending religious patterns. The Egyptians, for example, believed in an after-world, where their souls would be judged based on their deeds. The Jews also took these archetypes and created idolatrous symbols to worship their gods.
If I were asked to explain myself, I'd have faced two possible standpoints: the short answer and the elaborated reply. But in this case, permit me I used both, since I want to provide a thoughtful and honest account of my life experiences.
I've struggled to reconcile my Christian upbringing with the harsh realities of the world. After 2,000 years of Christianized indoctrination, I've come to realize that we're still stuck in our ways – we're still maliciously judging others for their beliefs and actions. We attack those who disagree with us, often without even considering the underlying issues.
As someone who's searched for spiritual connection, I've found that it's not always easy to find. In fact, it's often fraught with criticism and hostility from those who claim to be "saved." It's as if they're trying to prove their own righteousness by tearing others down.
But I've come to realize that I'm not alone in this struggle. We're all searching for meaning and connection in a chaotic world. And that's why I'm committing my life to God, not as a means of earning salvation, but as a way of acknowledging the complex and imperfect nature of human existence.
I still want to be just and "godly," but I won't be defined by the hierarchic organized religions that have failed me. I'll continue to seek truth and understanding, even if it means going against the grain.
In the end, it's not about being right or wrong; it's about being honest and authentic. And that's what I'm trying to do – be honest with myself and others about my journey and my doubts.
Rulling or "spiritual" governance
Governments and religions share a common trait: one side levies taxes to fund their endeavors under the guise of "sound governance," while the other side secretly exploits human expectations. The former taxes people's hard-earned money to fund their own interests, while the latter convinces people to part with their time and resources in the name of spirituality.
Throughout human history, countless individuals have sought to connect with a warm and benevolent God, just as children long to communicate with their loving parents. However, I have found that the concept of "Jesus" is not based on reality or divine truth, and has not been kind to me.
The question remains: has Jesus been alive for 2,000 years? Or was he merely a mythical figure created to serve a specific purpose?
Humans have always sought trustworthy guidance for various issues, particularly when navigating uncertain territories. In ancient times, oracles and prophecies played a crucial role in providing direction, especially when they were believed to come from God.
The Israelites frequently sought godly guidance before embarking on significant journeys or wars. For example, they asked the priest to inquire of God before departing on a journey, as recorded in Judges 18:5. However, it is unclear whether they heard God's voice or simply relied on the interpretation of their priests.
Interestingly, there is a mistake in Psalm 82:6-7 that suggests humans were consulted instead of God. This highlights the tendency for humans to seek guidance from other humans rather than the divine.
Throughout history, various cultures have consulted oracles, including the Jews, Romans, and Greeks. They often sought out trustworthy and qualified individuals who possessed sacred tools like the Urim and Thummin. However, these tools are now lost.
In Ezra 2:63 and Nehemiah 7:65, we find that even before consuming consecrated food, priests were required to use the Urim and Thummin to verify God's opinion. This emphasizes the importance of spiritual and sacramental authority.
The Israelites, like many humans throughout history, have always sought to be clean and well-informed before undertaking significant endeavors. Flavius Josephus records several instances where the Romans consulted their gods to gain insight into the future.
In general, pagans and even Saul (1 Samuel 28:3-7) consulted seers and mediums to gain positive oracles and favorable signs. When they lacked material means to access divine guidance, they would seek out spirits believed to be respectable and trustworthy.
The Bible prohibits consulting mediums and wizards for advice, as this is seen as a form of idolatry (Leviticus 20:6). God expects respect and is willing to punish those who reject Him.
After being enslaved by Babylon, the Israelites lost their national identity, including their language and writing system. This forced transculturation is a common phenomenon in human history, where one culture is influenced by another.
The Babylonian empire represents a leadership without God as Sovereign, which is why all rulers have created numerous religious systems. This limited "bookish" movement attempted to redeem cultural layers for historical reasons.
I am unclear about why some conquered Jewish towns lost their possessions.
However, each time I read the King James Bible (KJV), I realized that certain old practices are no longer relevant.
I perceived satanic influence at work in the way Scribes altered the original text of Scripture by changing God's holy name to "Lord" or "Adonay." This unspiritual human supremacy was installed whenever each town became subject to a powerful ruler.
The Nazca drawings on Peruvian lands remind me that not all humans have been Androcentric (some have venerated animals or worshiped angelical beings).
Humans have always craved divinity and eternity. The Epic of Gilgamesh is a testament to this desire for immortality. We cannot easily accept the idea that our spiritual yearnings were first included in mystical ideas when separated scrolls became compiled as religious literature.
The apocryphal texts reveal that Androcentrism has been so bold that some kabbalists ---using *Enoch's* books--- have hero-worshipped Solomon as someone who controlled demons using "a seal" to make believe they served both man and God. Wasn't it idolatry concealed, in a frame occultist?
From the caves of Genesis to the Hebrew language, we see a satanic plan to enchain humanity into a hierarchical structure, particularly when the monotheistic language became "dead" and was replaced by disbelief - "God was dead" - and blame for many things. This was a strategy to distract humanity from the truth and promote a false narrative.
In Egypt, around 1358 BC, Pharaoh Amenhotep IV (Akhenaton) attempted to replace their old idolatry with a sun worship, incipient monotheism, which ultimately failed. Similarly, Moses was born in Egypt around 1571 BC, and the Exodus is said to have occurred around 1490 BC. However, some historians date the Exodus to a later period, making it difficult to reconcile with Moses' age.
The earliest known instance of monotheism dates back to the reign of Akhenaton in the 14th century BC. However, this attempt at monotheism failed, and invisible spiritual forces like misperceptions and divisions prevailed.
It's possible that the ancient Egyptians sought to know other cults or the occult, as they were not able to perceive God with their physical eyes. The Didache, a written work attributed to the early Christian Church, reveals how the name of God was replaced with "Lord" to fit the intentions of the Roman Catholic Church's belief system.
As the Jewish people drifted away from their original religious traditions, they forgot that God is sovereign and jealous (Deuteronomy 6:14-15). They also wanted a king, like other nations, as a tangible manifestation of God's presence. The biblical account of Moses' encounter with God in the wilderness highlights this desire for a tangible manifestation of God's presence (Genesis 46:4; Exodus 33:14-15).
The immaterial, mystical government they once kept was not compelling enough to sustain them. Instead, internal forces led to an elite of Jews who sought to maintain economic privileges, while unencumbered Jewish people might have opted for a sort of religious democracy (1 Samuel 8:19-20; 12:12).
As they sensed that God was not absolutist or monopolist but open to contrary opinions (1 Samuel 15:23, 15:28, and 16:14), YHWH asked Samuel to understand that the Israelites rejected Him as their God and King. It was not Samuel's leading role that was rejected but God's (1 Samuel 8:7; 10:18-19).
The biblical account of Saul's reign highlights the dangers of pride and selfishness. Once I realized that the New Testament was not as glorious as I had read in the Old Testament, after I knew that Jesus was not God but a human chosen by God (a second time, as Israel asked for kings), I saw that I had been wrong in believing man-made tales that exalted manhood above God's realm.
Most ancient written traditions spoke of divinized men who sought control over those who could not oppose the impact of "angelic" satanic powers.
The book of Genesis contains sequential lagoons at speaking or narrating of mighty men, but someone decided it simply stated that those mighty beings mingled with women sexually... For power or sexaula pleasure? (The Torah shed more light on the issues).
According to Genesis 6:4, "There were men of great strength and size on the earth in those days; and after that, when the sons of God had connection with the daughters of men, they gave birth to children: These were the great men of old days, the men of great name." The deep meaning of "the men of great name" is unclear, but it's possible that Gilgamesh and Goliath were metaphoric images of mythic grandeur.
It's possible that the ancient civilizations lied about their accomplishments, but it's also possible that they were truthful about their achievements. The apocryphal book of Enoch speaks of unidentified spiritual beings that will be punished, and Genesis 6:2 mentions that some daughters were so beautiful that supernatural beings came down and married them.
The book of Enoch also speaks of Watchers, who were spirits of fallen angels. This concept is not unique to Christianity and has been found in various ancient cultures. The idea that humans were helped by divine humanoids or "gods" is also not unique to Christianity and has been found in various ancient cultures.
As I read God as the real and UNIQUE Redeemer, I was forced to reevaluate my ill-biased understanding of Christianity: Romans lied to me, from the very beginnigs!
I realized that Jesus, if ever existed, was not considered "god" by many Jewish disciples (that was an introduced concept in the tradition of the RCC culture) and, additionally, the concept of a single, *all-powerful gods* were not unique to Christianity. By time, I also realized that the idea of fallen angels was not original to the theology of Christianity, and such concepts were also found in various ancient cultures. Where did Greek culture get its ideas from *fallen gods*, when they were sent to inhabit or help the earth?
I disbelieved Jesus as "god" because I saw him NOT as a man who was chosen by God to lead a group of people. I "saw" him as a mortal man who was exalted to a higher position after his death, but I did not see him as a divine being during these 2.000 years.
I also realized that the concept of a single, all-powerful God was not unique to Christianity. The Bible speaks of other gods and goddesses in various cultures and languages, and it is clear that the concept of a single, all-powerful gods were not widely accepted in ancient times.
I saw that I had been wronged by believing manufactured tales exalting manhood above God's overshadowed realm. I realized that God was not a distant, impersonal being who was only concerned with Himself, but a personal God who wanted to have a relationship with His people.
I also saw that the concept of Satan as a fallen angel was not unique to Christianity. The Bible speaks of Satan as a fallen angel who opposes God and His people, but this concept is not unique to Christianity and has been found in various ancient cultures.
I saw that the concept of Jesus as a divine being was not unique to Christianity and has been found in various ancient cultures. The New Testament speaks of Jesus as a divine being "who was sent by God to save humanity" but this concept is not unique to Christianity and has been found in the religious traditions various cultures.
Were was such *saviour* during the wars BEFORE WW1 and AFTER the WW2?
I also saw that the concept of the Trinity was not ORIGINAL to Christianity and it has been found in various ancient cultures. The Bible speaks of the Trinity as a unity of three persons - Father, Son, and Holy Spirit - but this concept is not original to Christianity, and has been found everywhere in several belief systems and cultures.
In conclusion, I saw that I had been wronged by believing manufactured tales exalting manhood above God's overshadowed realm. I realized that God was not a distant, impersonal being who was only concerned with Himself, but a personal God who wanted to have a relationship with His people.
Governments and religions are alike in their pursuit of power and control. One side taxes and spends freely, claiming it's for the sake of sound governance, while the other side steals from people's expectations, often under the guise of spirituality.
Many humans have longed to interact with a warm and benevolent God, just as some children desire to talk to their friendly parents. However, I've found that "Jesus" is not a real or "godly" figure, and He has not acted friendly towards me.
Despite this, the concept of Jesus has been perpetuated for 2,000 years. It's intriguing to consider whether He was indeed alive or if He was simply a myth created by humans.
In ancient times, people sought trustworthy guidance from oracles and prophecies. The Israelites, for example, frequently consulted God before embarking on important journeys or wars. In Judges 18:5, the priest advises them to go in peace, saying that their journey is before יהוה (YHWH).
However, it's essential to note that many Jews and other cultures consulted human oracles as well. They sought guidance from qualified individuals who possessed sacred ephods and used the Urim and Thummin (which is now lost).
Before eating consecrated food, Ezra demanded that the Urim and Thummin be used to consult God's opinion. This highlights the importance of spiritual authority and verification.
Flavius Josephus mentions several instances where Romans consulted their gods to gain insight into the future. Similarly, Saul consulted a seer to gain a positive oracle (1Sam 28:3-7).
In general, people have sought to be informed and guided by spiritual authorities. However, when they didn't have material means to achieve their goals, they often turned to other sources, such as mediums and wizards.
The Bible is a unique postdiluvian source of encyclopedic information. In it, we find Jesus presented as a trusted teacher and "god." However, once God's name disappears from the new "sacred" literature, other names are substituted to fill the void.
Throughout history, people have chosen to venerate foreign "gods" and excluded God's YHWH. Flavius Josephus attempted to promote his Roman propaganda by giving details of the "Jewish Wars" in Greek language. However, he failed to tell the whole truth and may have altered his original name to curry favor with the Roman authorities.
I'm sharing my story as a testament to my own experiences and observations. I still believe in God but no longer believe in Jesus. My life review has taught me valuable lessons about mortality and the importance of living in harmony with nature.
One pivotal moment in my life occurred when I almost died in a jeep accident in Venezuela. As I was about to fall from a precipice, I had a sudden life review and saw many things I did and planned to do. Just as I was about to give up, I heard a voice saying, "¡Quédate tranquilo!" (Stay easy!).
For future understanding, I'd like to clarify that I wish God had said something deeper and more personal. Instead, I received a shallow message that seemed almost trivial. How do I know who spoke to me? The voice was firm and strong, but not booming.
As I slowly opened my eyes after the accident, I saw that the jeep had hit a thin tree and a pile of sand that stopped me from falling. It was a miracle that occurred during my second visit to that place in 1989.
This experience has left me with many questions about God's nature and intentions. Despite my doubts, I continue to believe in God's existence and seek answers through my own experiences and reflections.
I hope this long story simply provides some insight into my journey and thet it also helped readers understood my search, my perspective on spirituality and need to understand what it could be TRUE faith: This is what YOU dug! (not what I've told).
As I reflect on my life review (the one I experienced when I was near to die) I remain struck at the phenomenal aspects of my FEAR at being at a "near-death" experience. It wasn't just the fact that I was stopped at "my time", or that my life was spared from dying that day, but rather that deep voice I heard, and the life review I had, so quicklit. I wish I had it as a video to refresh those feelings or to see more details... If I had it, it couldn't be used to brag about or to prove I was there; those things are always personal and subjective.
It would be easier if such a thing was stated concisely, without much wording, without weak arguments, and vague opinions. However, to contradict human "established" traditions, I have to remark that I was deceived and lured into becoming Christian. I'd bet a dollar that the first Christmas wouldn't be mentioned as an odd hint that Christianity never noticed as a relocated myth.
When I was Christian, reading their gospel, I made some simple calculations figuring out Jesus' date. I thought "he" came near September 13. Nevertheless, those who have searched for the Ultimate Truth have noticed that Jesus wasn't born in December, the moment when Romans celebrated their feast of Saturnalia... If he was "real," he wasn't born in December! (According to their gospel, it would have been around mid-September).
However, it belongs to each person to believe and walk in their own ways, finding out where they set their footpaths and ultimate truth. I'd calculated Jesus' birth as September 13, but Kim Seong-yong says it was another day. Nonetheless, here both are "right" at saying Jesus didn't emerge on December... Of course, Romans were busy with their Saturnalia feast!
"Jesus" 2nd coming by 2027?
Although I am not radically against Christians (neither have attacked their deceitful faith), I'd think not all of them have read an online free book published in May 2022 by Kim Seong-yong... He is an enthusiastic follower of Jesus (who wants to be approached [retelcom@naver.com] by emails) ... I read his amazing "prophetic" book and think he's a committed believer warning the world against the final fate that's near... However, he wouldn't read this letter of 70 sheets (but I fully read his book of 150 pages).
Do I care that people don't care?
"This is what the YHWH says: 'Bad things will happen to those who put their trust in people. Bad things will happen to those who depend on human strength. That is because they have stopped trusting the YHWH.'" (Jer 17:5) (ERV)
Those who trusted "sacred" literature –or Jesus– trusted men, not God:
"Yahweh says, 'I will condemn those who turn away from me and put their trust in human beings, in the strength of mortals'." (Jer 17:5) (GNB)
We're stubborn to observe incorrect things looked after...
"The heart is deceitful above all things, and it is incurable; who can know it? I, Yahweh, examine the mind, I test the heart, and give to each one according to his way, according to the fruit of his deeds." (Jer 17:9-10)
In their writings, it's said a young man wanted to follow Jesus' messianic movement in Capernaum and, somewhat (suddenly?) his dad died... since he also wanted to be part of the chief 12 men (by the way, we don't know anything about the tribes they belonged):
"… 'Lord, allow me first to go and bury my father.' But Jesus said to him, 'Follow me, and leave the dead to bury their own dead.'" (Mat 8:21-22)
We're not clearly sure the type of social turmoil Matthew really perceived, but it seems all of them believed Jesus was mighty in deeds and they sought to be engaged into his leadership.
If the brief –or mutilated– account we have read of Matthew could be an extended version in the clarifications Luke gives, I see there are more chances the historical Jesus (whatever it was his real name) probably spoke to a couple of men who –over there, on a siege or a blockade– had lost their dad...
"But nothing is concealed that will not be revealed, and secret that will not be made known." (Luc 12:2)
Was it a conspiracy of silence or "secret" public (and political) meeting?
But being within the crowd of rebelled hundreds (please, verify the scenery, the place and the situation they were in, from Luke 12:1):
"One of the multitude said to him, 'Teacher, tell my brother to divide the inheritance with me.'" (Lk 12:13)
This man perceived Jesus as a judge, same way Absalom wanted to be seen and liked... So, it was a political meeting! (I see no traces of a "spiritual" talk).
What were they really doing & planning that moment? Was it an occupied country –or a freed region– with few Roman soldiers around?
What did Jesus offer the crowds to be over there, at Capernaum?
If you looked at Matthew (Matt 10.26-31), that account over there looks like a war campaign, and that reminds me Joseph Atwill's findings when reading Flavius Josephus's "Jewish Wars" (in "The Caesar's Messiah"... Thank you, Mr. Atwill!).
If that big gathering of people –perceived by Matthew's pen– was a religious feast (near the Passover [Exo 12:8])... What were those men really seeking? A stuff of the inheritance or a breakdown of justice through war? (Deut 21:16-17)
Again! "Jesus" was challenging people –as narcissist as he was– giving them more words than actually were in their writings, while –some others– were pleading for money or time "to follow" him... Flavio's Josephus words are more eloquent at the momentum of his counterplotted story.
Have you read a piece of the theory of the book "The Caesar's Messiah" written by Joseph Atwill? (www.caesarsmessiah.com)
Just for a moment, let's consider this: if two hundred friends gathered, it would be publicly visible and audible to many that a significant event was taking place, far from the Temple in Jerusalem. This raises questions about whether it was a Jewish revolt or a feast, given the story of Jesus' ministry near the Lake of Galilee (which probably was closely watched by Romans occupying Jewish lands).
Jesus' words, as recorded in Luke 12:4, suggest that his message challenged people psychologically. He said, "I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot afterward do anything worse." This quote can be seen as a call to action, encouraging people to take a stand against those who ruled Israel.
In Matthew 5:41, Jesus advises his followers to go an extra mile with any soldier who abuses them, carrying their backpack. This could be seen as a fighting strategy, where carrying an extra burden allows one to gather information and be prepared for future actions. By pretending to be foolish, one can gain valuable insight and knowledge.
However, some people may view this as anti-Semitic. They may see Jesus' words as a call to punish the entire Jewish community for the sins of a few individuals. This is evident in Matthew 23:35-36, which quotes Jesus saying, "You will be guilty for the death of all the good people who have been killed on earth. You will be guilty for the killing of that godly man Abel... You will be guilty for the killing of all the good people who lived between the time of Abel and the time of Zechariah."
But what does this mean? Are we being punished for the sins of our ancestors? Does God punish entire generations for the mistakes of a few individuals? The Bible says that God does not punish children for their parents' sins (Deuteronomy 24:16) or vice versa. The soul who sins will die (Ezekiel 18:20).
It's also important to note that Jesus' message may not have been universally understood. The Bible records that many Jews lacked personal direction and spiritual intimacy. They may have turned to fortune-tellers or mediums for guidance, rather than seeking a deeper connection with God.
Monotheism is often seen as a more straightforward and easier path than polytheism. However, it's important to recognize that Christianity is a refinement of Judaism, which has its own set of rituals and ceremonies. While these practices may not be everyone's cup of tea, they are an important part of Jewish tradition.
In the end, it's clear that each individual needs to find their own path to spirituality. We can't rely on mediators or intermediaries to connect us with God. We need to listen to His whispers and respond with our own voices.
Regarding Josephus' writings, it's clear that he had a biased perspective. He was a Roman collaborator who helped facilitate the destruction of Jerusalem. His writings present God as punishing the Jews for their sins by sending Titus and his armies.
But what about the prophecies in the Old Testament?
Do they really predict that God will punish Israel for their sins?
Or did Josephus simply interpret them in a way that justified Roman actions?
Once you read Jeremiah or Ezekiel, you will realize there is no collective sin people are to pay, unless EVERYBODY was doing the same.
In conclusion, I've come to realize that my previous beliefs were misguided. I've seen that monotheism is often easier and more straightforward than polytheism. However, I've also realized that each individual needs to find their own path to spirituality. We can't rely on mediators or intermediaries to connect us with God.
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